You Hurt Me: A Poem On Forgiveness

You hurt me

Took my heart

Stomped on it

And, now it’s not working 

After all the years of trying to earn me and learn me

You seemed to be possessed

When like the devil

You decided to burn me

No empathy for the loss

Like Hitler, Hussein, or Stalin

You didn’t even try to catch me

When you seen I was fallin’ 

Nope.

You took your chains

A slave to your own selfish needs

Wrapped them around my heart

And ran off free 

Now, I cannot free myself

From this state of mind

I want to let you go

But for some reason, I’m in a bind

Because you hurt me

Took my heart

Stomped on it

And, now it’s not working

A chain around my ankle

A noose around my neck

I feel like I am drowning in the ocean

Tossed from the Titanic shipwreck

Something sitting on my chest

Weighing me down to a bottomless pit

Even though I’m using all my strength

It doesn’t seem to want to lift

It’s powerful, intense, and heavy

Seems like too much for me to bear

As it walks me down the pathway

To depression, gloom, despair

You deserve all this venom I have

Just let me sink my teeth in

Because you tricked me into your spell

Convincing me that we should be more than just friends

Then, you hurt me

Took my heart

Stomped on it

And, now it’s not working

See. I have this feeling in my heart

For a good darn reason

And, I plan to hold it for a while

Forget a month or a season

You knew from the start

That we weren’t going to make it

But, you got me to expose myself

So, I stood before you vulnerable and naked

I can’t believe I trusted you

I can’t believe I trusted us

I can’t believe that I believed you when you said

That we defined what love was

I snuck because my mama said no

I went when my friends said stop

I wanted to be with you for an eternity

No seconds, minutes, or hour hands on the clock

But, no, that wasn’t good enough for you

You low-life, sorry excuse for a man

After I gave you my everything, my all and all

You didn’t think twice, just stole my heart and ran

And, you hurt me

Took my heart

Stomped on it

And, now it’s not working

I saw you the other day

My heart started to beat at a rapid pace

You were with her

And, I saw content all on your face

After that, I felt like I had ran a marathon

So, that night I tried to climb into bed and rest

But, I dreamed about you and her

Only to wake up and feel that weight again on my chest

You won’t get away with this one

So, suffer! Hurt! Feel the pain that I feel!

A wound so deep that no bandage, ointment, or doctor

Will ever be able to heal

I willingly give to you

A cut, a welt, a gash, a sore

Wait! I’m not finished.

Let me search for more

A pain, some torture,

much agony, and yeah some grief

I want you to feel it.

Feel what it’s like to be me

Because you hurt me

Took my heart

Stomped on it

And, now it’s not working

I want to be angry

I want you to know what it’s like to be little ol’ me

But, I can’t get a grip on myself

Because, little did I know, your actions still were trying to hold me

Controlling me and molding me

Into a bitter, hot with anger, more scolding me

What is this God?

What can this be?

I’m trying to get back to normal life

But, I just can’t get back to me

Then, as soft as a whisper

A pen drop, a dime

The Lord told me the problem

And, excuse me, this doesn’t rhyme

Unforgiveness.

Unforgiveness in my heart.

Unforgiveness in my mind.

Unforgiveness casting a deep, dark shadow

Hiding the person I’m trying to find

Because you hurt me

Took my heart

Stomped on it

And, now it’s not working

But now I’ve come to a point of reality

I can see clearly that I’ve been living a lie

I’ve been drinking the poison of unforgiveness

Then, sitting back and waiting on you to die

I can’t call the doctor or nurse

So, what am I to do if I want to be rid of this disease?

I must go to The One that provides

Healing, love, joy, and unexplainable peace

He is the only one that can restore my joy

Clear my mind and rebuild my heart

He’ll help me find where I fell off

Wipe my sins, and take me back to my start

His word is a two-edged sword

I know I need to crack open The Good Book

But, it’s hard to forgive someone that hurt you

Without thinking that I’m letting them off the hook

He is showing me that to forgive someone

Doesn’t mean I have to forget

I am just loosing the strong hold

From around my own neck

What I thought was him having a hold on me

Was really me not letting go of him

He hurt me to my core

But, I refuse to be his victim

I want redemption from him without relation with him

I don’t need him to say sorry or us to even converse

I don’t want a false definition of closure

Because what’s done is done. No need to reverse.

He’s not here because he has moved on.

Got a new girl and I couldn’t care less

I just want to let him and what we had go

Can’t get trapped back into that mess

I want me back

I want back my genuine smile, my hardy laugh

I want to be happy with me

Even if we didn’t last

I have to give my pain to my Savior

The One stretched on that rugged cross

And forgive my ex for all he has done

I want to be the victor no matter the cost

Because he hurt me, but He healed me

He took my heart and stomped on it you see

Until He picked it up and did surgery

Without a scalpel or a knife

He did what He does best and brought me back to life

So, don't say nothing
Stop. Please just save it!
What you've done is buried
And, I swear I'll never raise it

It's easy to write it down on paper
Or try to think it my head
But, I know the power is in my tongue
And, Imma speak until it's dead

I forgive you!
I forgive you!
I forgive you!