Lust: A Poem

You drew me in

And had your way

Without me having a word to say

You had me in a trance

I tried to get back to God

But, I felt like a thief

Being robbed

I take all of you

You take all of me until there's nothing left

But, emptiness, bitterness,

And the agonizing pain of spiritual death

Because when I laid on that bed

I forgot that I was already wed

I had already pledged my love times infinity

To the ultimate mate... The Trinity

See, I let my guard down

This never happened before

When you slept with me

You were sleeping with four

Four

Inside of me is one, two, three

The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit

So, when I first saw you

All three told me not to get near it

See... When I lied with you

They had to lie too

Inside of me

Their table was already reserved

So, they had no choice

But to stay and observe

They said, "No! Look out!

This is your warning!"

But, I didn't listen

Until the next morning

Woke up sobbing

Not sure what to do

I wanted to run

But, I was stuck like glue

This evil paste, such a waste,

Wouldn't let me run or hide

It was too late

Because we were already tied

Tied

Tied

I was so ti(r)ed

Tired of the guilt, the shame, the defeat

When we became one

I became weak

Slowly diminishing the responsibilities

As the bride of the bridegroom

I wanted to let Him back in

But, honestly, I had no more room

This Lust had taken over me

Body, mind, and soul

I tried to run... I really did

But, it wouldn't let me go

It wouldn't let me go

Back to the three that truly cared for me

Back to the three that held my identity

Back to the three that I had divorced... illegally

God said,

"I'm married to those that backslide."

Yeah, I knew that

But, I was too busy trying to hide

Hide

Hide what had died

Hide all the pride

Hide what was growing inside

And, I did

Hide, that is

When he found out

All-of-a-sudden, it wasn't his

It wasn't his?

It wasn't his?!

Everything that I became was his

This attitude was his

This anger was his too

I said, "You took all of me

And now I'm dealing with all of you!"

When we laid together

Some things transferred

I never had these problems

until we occurred

I had left me

I didn't know who I was anymore

Turning this temple of God

into Lust's little whore

A harlot

Like Delilah or Gomar or Rahab

But, I couldn't blame you

I had to take myself to rehab

So, I enrolled myself into a program

Called The Truth

I needed to figure out how I got like this

After being so much like Ruth

The first step was rough

It was to get past denial

I admit I was adulterous

Because I had already walked down the aisle

Wearing my scarlet letter

It was time for me to get better

Good

Better

Best

The Truth had my heart pounding inside my chest

I had dismissed The One

In search of someone

Someone

Anyone

To tell me I was pretty

Someone

Anyone

That enjoyed me being witty

But, that someone came with a price

That someone came with a price

A price

A price

That someone

Came with a price

Another nail

Into The Ultimate Sacrifice

-bnc